tumblr_mchjcnEbXY1rck5gjo1_500I woke Remus last night. I felt warm with lust all day. We awoke Sunday morning, feeling like two magnets thrust together. He felt sated by our time. I did not. I wanted more. My body couldn’t stay awake though. I slept much of the day and he had his errands to run. Some of them helping out a friend. While alone, I put my hand on my clit and scratched my itch enough to make me fall asleep again. I woke in heat yet again. He wandered home after dark, and settled in to cuddle me. I was sitting in the dark thinking how I enjoyed our party and I had so wanted to join him for a scene he did with this beautiful young woman. I didn’t join him, because I didn’t feel welcome and neither invited me, so I just wandered by the room on occasion. I felt lonely for him thinking of that, so I was grateful and reassured when he wrapped his arms around me and held me close. A while later, we got up to watch 60Minutes. We settled in from of the TV with breakfast for dinner and enjoyed the show. He was getting sleepy of course, so I didn’t push for more of his cock. We went up to bed and he fell almost immediately to sleep. I lay tossing, caressing myself, heated and unable to sleep. I read. I looked at sexy gifs. I read. I got sleepy and then couldn’t go to sleep. I finally rolled to his side of the bed and caressed his cock alive. I rode him. He was close to sleep the whole time, so he didn’t last long. I washed him up, tucked him in. I was not sated. It was a long while yet until I slept. I woke just as avid for his cock as when I fell asleep last night.

Playing Together

tumblr_mh6qd1iuJ61qlaztko1_500We are hosting an upcoming play party which I am really anticipating. We’ve invited people who are lot’s of fun to play with, people we’d like to get to know better and those we love already. Of those who are coming, I’ve played with four of the woman, Remus has played with all the women. I’ve not played with many of the men at this point, but we love them and all the other women love them, so there they are. *smiles* I am just thrilled that we have made such great friends!

We have settled into this style of polyamory at present that we play with others at play parties. It is an emotionally safe way to develop emotional bonds with others over time and its an emotionally safe way to learn to trust each other about engaging others. At present we aren’t having sex with anyone else, and neither of us are conducting an additional devotion now either. But this is how we are trying it out.

Remus really struggled emotionally with having his marriage fall apart when we get together. If we go farther than this, it will happen gradually with an individual we choose together that we know well already. In the mean time, I intend to spank some pretty asses, maybe let a man or two who has itched to play with me, try that out, and we will likely have sex together. Perhaps overtly, perhaps not. We’ve done mostly the latter, but with the door open. I hope to watch some sex. That’s always fun too.