Wow…Life has been eventful of late. My friend Ginny has moved after an event in her daughter’s life that necessitated some sacrifices on the part of Ginny…It was good to see her having fun this past weekend at a kink event. I think she’s worried that she wouldn’t get to have much kinky fun in the year or years ahead. It was good to see her proven wrong…*smiles* Did my heart good to see her smiling!
I am also seeing changes for Remus. His wife has been…Not quite honest or at least not forthcoming about her true feelings toward me…and she’s also had an attitude toward me that is far from what she stated to me personally. In fact, I am sad to see that her attitude toward me is no better than Deb’s was…actually just as toxic it seems…Though she’s not overtly hostile…she’s determined to be friendly it seems.
However, she recently said some very hurtful things to Remus…who won’t even tell me about the full content of them.
I am sad for him…and I”m sad that this situation hasn’t turned out different than it has. I guess that she’s listened to gossip about me and has had an attitude toward me from the very beginning. What a very sad thing…
Nothing I can do about it though…not about any of it.
I just wish that I could wave my wand and make it all better.
It looks like he’s going to ask her for a separation. He’s very angry with her and very hurt.
She’ll be allowed to live downstairs until she figures out where she’ll live. That may take several months.
One thing though…
He is adamant that I am not to even think about moving. He wants me to stay. “End of discussion!”
He has been incredibly firm that I tell him if she’s unkind or rude in some way. He says that she will be out sooner if she acts out toward me.
I told him that I didn’t want him to choose between us or police us, so when she’s home, I’ll stay upstairs as much as possible, to avoid instances that could turn sour…
He seemed relieved about that…and also sad.
We will work this out…
I am very sad that I seem to have become a bone of contention between them. I did my best not to be…and she misled us both about her liking for me…
I”ve been doing alot of meditation on the karma of all this…and trying to just be present.
And I’m still enjoying my vacation…not writing much or even doing much more than keeping house and cooking…some walks now and then. I’m just resting…
On a high note?
I’m so happy to note that Remus and I are doing just fabulous…Truly. *smiles*