I’m contemplating whether a period of time being mindfully celibate is going to be a blessing. I think I need to tease out some tensions and habits that are mixed in with my sexual/emotional/touch needs. I think that I would like to develop some friendships which I hope might become sexual and have an element of power exchange…but do so absent the potential for sex in the near future. I think that I would like to have a few months in which I have no new partners so that a new STI screening is pretty accurate at painting my status picture. I like to have clarity on my status. Sometimes that takes some celibacy. I’ve already been sans a lover for about a month or so and I have done a few months of celibacy deliberately in the past for this collection of reasons and I felt really happy with the results.
Not sure I’m going to do that, but I’m considering making the trend of lacking a lover a ,more mindful one.